We were so sad to move yet again, but we turned our focus to spending the next few years living close to my parents and enjoying holidays, outings, and normal life with them. That alternate reality where there was no accident is so achingly clear in my heart and mind. But we feel that the Lord brought us here at this time to support my mom and that our circuitous path led us here because He loves her and my dad so much. And while it's not how we expected it, our new reality is sweet and has many blessings. The boys have adjusted very well to school and life here, Matt is loving his new job, and, while I fractured my pelvis and got a concussion in the accident, the baby and I are both doing well. We also feel very blessed to be able to share so many special moments with my mom, who is such a loving, gracious mother and grandmother.
I am sure that I will be posting more about my dad in the coming months and always, but I couldn't post about this new sweet baby this week without posting first about my dear dad. My life will never be the same because of his life and now because of his death. I miss and love him so very much.
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A hard, good read...I agree with your friend, little things just bring tears to my eyes as I get caught off guard by a random reminder. I'm grateful for the reminders, and the tears. Gideon once asked why I cry, and I said that it is because I miss and love my Dad, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I love you, and am so happy for your little girl to come into our family on Tuesday!
I am so sorry to hear this. What a difficult time for you. I am so sorry about your dad. I am glad that you and the baby are okay. I look forward to seeing pictures when she is born.
Oh my goodness Robyn. My heart is aching for you. I am so incredibly sorry that you have been through so much these past few months. And I'm so sorry that we haven't stayed in contact so that I might have known about this sooner. So many thoughts...I am so glad you are okay and I hope that you are getting the help that you need with moving, having three little ones, being pregnant, car accident and losing your dad. That is SO MUCH to take on. Almost too much. You are so strong though Robyn. I love and miss you very much. I think of you often. You will be in my prayers. I hope that your delivery goes good and your sweet little girl arrives without complications. Please keep us posted. If you feel up to it, email me shayleenlunt at gmail dot com
Maybe we can exchange numbers and catch up if you are ever up for it (no pressure though, goodness! You have got to be so busy)
Love ya.
Robyn, you captured "bittersweet" so well in this post. What a lovely tribute. I know it must have been so hard to write. I'm thinking of and praying for you and baby girl (and all of your boys, of course). Love you!
Robyn,
Such hard realities have been yours and your family's since August. Of course the picture and your words brought tears to me. Who would have known that Leland's excitement about your move would end up to be a blessing to him and your mom in such different ways than we suspected.
As we look forward to tomorrow, the only peace that is strong and true is that we look forward and keep our eyes ahead knowing that the past was so sweet yet so fleeting. I can't wait to meet your little girl tomorrow. A new chapter begins!
ditto to what everyone else has said. You said that you were going to write about it before the baby was born, and I was glad I checked. :) You are so amazing, and I am so thankful for you and your wisdom and strength. Your family has done so very much for us, and we sure do love you!We just can't wait to meet this very precious little girl. Prayers for tomorrow! Love you!
Robyn, I am so so sorry. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Oh dear Robyn....You have been on my mind often these past few months but especially these past few days and I've wanted to write you to tell you best wishes with the arrival of your sweet girl this week. (she has the coolest birthday! :] ) Yet I'm always behind and just now read this heart wrenching post. Oh my, I almost don't know what to say but that I am so incredibly sorry and amen to everything that everyone has already posted, esp Shayleen's.
My heart is breaking and aching for you and my mind is racing with questions. I am so sorry you and your family have had to go through such a tragic experience. I cannot imagine. Just everything about it-esp the brand new move and being pregnant! I was so glad to read though that you and baby have been okay-I really hope you were and that you are able to heal and that she came w/ no added complications. I cannot wait to hear her name and to see pictures of this precious, precious baby. :] What a sweet blessing to your family at this difficult time.
I am just so incredibly sorry. You are amazing and have been through so much w/ each new baby and massive moves. It is incredible to be able to look back and see the Lord's hand in all and I know you do. What a sweet blessing to be close to your mom now and back 'home', that is still very exciting and amazing!
I'm so glad you did write and hope it did help, esp with your baby girl coming. My dear grandpa, who I was very close to, died in a very sudden and tragic falling accident a week before Christmas 5 years ago now, which is so crazy at times. It is very surreal and the range of emotions great. Oh yes, the first year and few years are so hard, the littlest things can bring you to tears instantly....but I can assure you that yes time will ease your pains and as you totally know, the ultimate healer and comforter is our Savior Jesus Christ. I pray that he has scooped you up and carried you and your precious family. I am so incredibly sorry.
This is also so close to my heart because both John's and mine's dads have had (several) such close encounters with death this past year also, & my good childhood friend lost her dad this summer also, so my emotions about dads have been very tender. I am just so sorry and praying and wishing you the very best. I am so glad you wrote. I would be more than happy to pray for you and remember you! I hope that you can continue to recover and heal in all ways with the joy of your sweet baby girl. And yes please keep us posted when you find that precious time :] and feel up to it. I know you will do great and continue to be an amazing and very capable and super Mom! Your boys and now girl! are so blessed. Your boys will be amazing big brothers! We love you so much and send all our best*~
Love, Chelsea & John & Boys
Oh Robyn, I had no idea about the accident. I knew he had suddenly passed, but had no idea it was in an accident and no idea you were with him. I am so sorry! But it's Wednesday which means your sweet baby girl should be here by now, and I can't wait to see pictures! Also I didn't know you were in Provo...we're up the road in Layton.
Dearest sweetest Robyn, This post brought back a flood of tears and the aching of my heart for you and your family. Although, I didn't know your dad very well, he always treated me with such respect and love. I felt like I mattered every time I talked to him. No doubt he has spent these past few months giving Liesl some pointers before she came to be with you and Matt. I love y'all so much. I can't wait to see my beautiful niece!
Oh dear, dear friend. Such hard things and deep emotions. Loved ones passing DOES seem so close no matter how long it has been - those moments when you think "oh I just want to call and tell them ____." Love what your friend, Jana said - better explanation than I can come up with. Let those tears come, cherish those memories, love those sweet moments with your children when you get to teach them about their grandpa, because I know you'll have those moments. It is in those moments that I remember and love my mom even more - their legacy is sweet and cherished! Dear friend, I would love to come visit you. We are not far from you (since you've moved back) so feel free to msg me on facebook if you want to get together. Much love - Laura
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